20Something and Surviving

I’m Back

I’m alive. Just barely.

So much has happened in this past week and a half and I don’t where to start.

Everything has morphed and become into one. I cannot differentiate between what is fact and what is fiction and whether all of it is just fantasy or fucking fickel reality. Life is like that, I’m told. Its part of Growing up someone else tells me. I say whatever. Very mature I know. But I’ve learnt some very hard lessons and I’ve also learnt how to have more fun. Or rather I relearnt how to have fun.

I have problems. So what. So does everyone else. My whining does not make them any more significant. I had to realise that first in order to move on. Which I have.

And its the lat time I’m moving on. lol. That sounds so fucking hilarious coz I’ve moving on for the past few weeks and nothing has happened but this time its going to happen.

So to get back to whats happened the best place to start is always at the beginning and in this case it is last weeks date.

The date was okay. And that wasn’t okay with me. I guess I’m selfish when it comes to matters of the heart coz I don’t like things half way. It must smack me in the face before I can truly take notice and that didn’t happem. Oh well, yet another girl-friend. I have way too many of those.

I did however meet someone else in the iterim and we’ve been chatting everyday since she bumped into me, by accident, in a club one Saturday evening. I have this rule that if you meet someone in a club it aint gonna last past the sex but this time I’m optimistic. I figured that I’m in clubs and I’m not an idiotic drunk pycho usually so maybe I should give it a chance.

Work has been super hectic as well as graduation coming up and completing my submission for my degree. I still kick myself when I find myself awake at 3 in the morning typing the same word over and over and over again. I usually kick myself because I realise that I have run out of both coffee and ciggarettes.

So it gets a bit much and Leez decides he’s going to have to take some study leave and just chill for a few days and so makes his way North. BAD idea. A couple of hangovers and a busted lip later I return home to find mommy dearest has decided to pay me a visit. How nice. Didn’t think she knew I was alive. Oh, smack my cranium, yes! Grads coming up… Someone sent an invitation. Make mental note to hunt them (read: twin sis) down and unleash the rath of Leez upon them but later. I need to sleep. Body is sore, head is pounding and throat is on fire. Damn that cheap whiskey. Or so I thought.

When I finally do come around, she who calls herself mommy, has taken me to Doctor( sweet isn’t she?), and I have tonsilitis and a mild fever. Okay. Can handle that. Three days…piece of cake.

Three days later and I’m glad to be back at work. I don’t care if I am doing two peoples jobs plus mine and I still feel like crap and now I also have an overdue assignment. I dont care that Im the only idiot that hasn’t bothered to… no never mind.

All I know is that I’m free. Coz that woman has gone back and I can now just relax. Take it easy. gotta get that song out of my head. irritating.

Looking forward to this weekend. If I didn’t make any sense don’t worry. I shouldn’t. before I had the brilliant idea of running back to work I decided to numb the sounds by taking as much of any medication I could find.

I’m Back.


June 5, 2008 - Posted by | leez, update


  1. Welcome back honey.

    Hang in there, it will get better. Because hey, by the sounds of it, you’ve already hit rock bottom. So its looking up!


    Comment by SheBee | June 5, 2008 | Reply

  2. Medication, it’s good!

    Cheap whiskey, it’s good, then bad!

    Keep the birds flocking bud…one will soon break it’s wing and you’ll nurse her back to health, in a little box, in the corner, feeding them worms and….ha ha!

    Comment by Ches | June 5, 2008 | Reply

  3. lol. Rock bottom was a long time ago.

    Things are already looking up. I should have also mentioned that my self imposed ban on technology was not wholly my decision.

    I’ve had to resort to drastic measures to even get internet access upon my return. long story. stay tuned.

    Comment by leez | June 5, 2008 | Reply

  4. Welcome back leez!

    If you need me to come break some limbs, let me know. Just point and shoot me.


    Comment by c@th | June 6, 2008 | Reply

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